I haven't talked about it much, but I've been struggling with faith for years now. I left the church I was attending several years ago, finding myself wondering why people that praise God with such fervor don't seem to live it, including myself. I prayed seldomly, weeks apart maybe, though I still found myself singing worship music. Sinning all the while, I lectured others on their walk with Him, and my own slipped away. That has changed.

This summer, a good friend of mine introduced me to an amazing church filled with people to learn from, people anointed to affect my life. I've learned about how absolutely unworthy I am of the love of God, my Saviour, my King, my Lord. This church is different though. Most Christians could fill in the blanks in this Bible verse: "For all have sinned and...". We know we fall short of the glory of God. What's sad is I knew that verse, but never emphasized the next part:

23for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.

How powerful is that? How powerful is it that I am unworthy but the blood of Jesus not only redeems me, but justifies me. My sin is not only washed away but I am innocent in the eyes of my Lord. Still, I found myself wrapped in my guilt, even as I worshipped. It goes against my earthly values to accept something I haven't earned, freedom that I have abused. Then, last night, at an amazing worship service, it hit me. We worship because we're unworthy. We worship Him because his love is undeserved but needed. God bless my readers, I hope you find hope in Him if you have none.